Initially I heaved a huge sigh of relief aft all e dramas in sch r over (only left wit network assignment now) bt e minute i came back home frm watching movie n saw e examination letter on my table, I cudnt help bt to feel at my lowest point again. My stress level hv been at its highest point for a period of tym n honestly i m jz so freakin tired. I wish ppl cud stop asking me y i lose so much weight. e more ppl who kip askin y i lose weight, e more i begin to weigh myself evri single day. And no, its not nice to b 4*kg bcos evritink i wear is so fuckin lose. I kip eating so much, for e past few wks I dono hw many pratas n murtabaks n fast food I ate in one day until Fatul say "kau perot babi kape" and all is bcos I wanna go back to being e old fleshy Salina. I dono y i wanna b thinner in e past bt i fuckin regret ok. Seeing my body state lyk tis n raul commenting "kenape bdn u makin kecik" is really awful. I cnt believe year 3 can cause me so much pain n pressure wit alot of tings to do n yet very little tym. Sometimes I cry for no mf reasons bcos I cnnt take e pressure. I turned into a cold bitch who gets angry very easily to e ppl ard me, lyk evri little ting jz pissed me off. I dono who to turn to bcos even I cnt understand wat izit that i want. I wish my mum can really understd my state and stop nagging cuz tt makes me stress too. I dono wats e point of me typing all tis. I jz cnt wait for evritink to end really. Call me a whiny bitch or watsoever bt this is my blog n u chose to read. Now fuck off.