On new year, I told him it will be another year for us to gt things right.


But.... You noe wats e greatest confessions ive heard so far in 2009?



"She was e bestest girlfriend i ever had - she understands me"



At e point of hearing it, I dono whether I should be sad or jz stab myself with a knife because I have never never never understand him all tis while.


NEVER. .

Wat happened to the comment he left me before?

"Final reminder... Once u officially step down from ure busy schedule..Its my turn to be busy. Am grateful that ure being supportive."

Isnt wat he meant supportive=understanding? Hvnt I got used to his busy schedule? Hvnt I understand hw he's always away? Do i even complain now wen im left stranded even if he's around? Or have i become numb to these situations?


I could feel my heart crushed in pain. Aft hearing wat he said, I wasnt upset, in fact I cudnt believe wat my ear was hearing. It took me awhile to absorb every filthy fuckin word. My mind was lagging. "she was the bestest..." it kips repeating on a repeat mode and tts when tears jz came down rolling.



He continued "See, you r just not strong....." - click - I put down the fone.



I dun need to hear any further clarification, justification or explanation. Cuz frm wat Im feelin, I think I noe who he really wanna be with - and its not me.

I dono wat im supposed to feel lyk right now. No one sees my effort. Yeah, I forgot, I did not go e extra mile for him. I did not make him happy. I hv never understood him.