Earwax : Siapa Yang Rampas Cintamu - Ukays

I broke up with Faiz. Last night.


My heart was telling me he's hiding more.


Called him a couple of times bt he din answer his phone.
Called his house and his sister said he wasnt at home.


Weird. Heart beatin very fast so I made my way to his place.
He called me and told me he jz finished swimming.


Okay here's e problem, he doesnt tell me wherever he goes now.


So we met, we sat at a park.



I asked him "r u contacting ur ex?"


A straight "NO!" to my face.


Unsatisfied, "really? sumpah demi Allah?"


And then evritink blew. Evritink jz came out frm his mouth.


"Yes Ive met her a couple of times... I cant rmbr her hp no.. Yes drg NYE, she was e one who called me to wish me Happy New Yr.. I came down to her void deck, played the guitar.. blablabla"


Told him, "sape yg carik pasal skrg? she doesnt noe ur new hp no. u mus hv gone in ur old msn add n chat n it all started frm there."



Wow. He had time for her yet he told me he's fuckin busy and if i dun gv him time, he wud say I dun understand him. But yeah he cn go all e fuckin way to mit his ex, who, mind you, alrdy has a bf.


I was amazed at how cool I was eventhou my hand was trembling lyk fuck!


Mcm nk sepak terajang choke slam pn ade!



Keep on saying "I need time.."


So i shoot "Time for what? I gave u time and this is what u did to me? Being unfaithful? Gv u more time so that u can choose who makes a better gf? Me or her? U noe wat, ure a terrific liar Md Faiz. To think that Ive done alot for you and this is how u treat me? Uve changed."


Wanted to go off the first tym bt he told me not to.
Just lyk how he always stopped me if I wanna walk away frm his life.

Then I tell myself, enough is enough.

I walk away leaving him and nvr turn back.

The moment I started to walk, i swear I could feel my heart aching so so bad.


I should have known better.
I see this coming just that I dun wanna believe it.



Aniway i told him im dissappointed in him.




Gave me so much hope. ---


"Im guilty for my sins.. I would not plead for innocence. Baby..lets do this together. We made a mistake and im sorry. Lets learn and repent from our mistakes we've made. I know it isnt easy for the past week. How much we quarrel..we will go back and share our love. Thats what Cik Mila said and i believe.. it has always been that way. I love u..and i want to prove to people...especially u. If only i have the money and the perfect job..i wont delay any longer. I'll work hard for it to happen. I just wanna make u happy but making u happy dosent mean i'll always listen to what u want. We all dont get what we want. Be flexible. I want to be flexible too.. I have alot flaws..and i want to change.. Ego..yes i am alot. But im trying to change alot. Now u may realise that i dont talk that much. Reason being..If i take away my ego..i'll talk less.. Just like if u want to be slim u take less food. Its not a bad thing. I know ive offended u alot times.. thats because i talk alot..a man with full of egos. But i want u to understand the message i want to send to u. We all get sensitive at times.. Just understand that. If one starts to flair.. Just hold back and think.. Do we want it to get worse. I just love u and i owe it alot to ur family. Im already happy that they accept me and same goes to u. I just dont want to start all over again with someone else. This is what i want.. and i want to keep it till the end. When u wake up tommorow.. I will still love u the first time i saw u. I will still have sweaty palm when i see u.. u can post this if u want.. but this is just for u "



You dissappointed me.
I backed you up when my friends dissed you.
Afterall now, they were right.
This part, I believed, I am naive.
You dissapointed my parents. Alot.
After what happened and stuffs.



I din go to work today.
Last night, after I left Faiz, I went to meet Farah who lend me a shoulder to cry on.
Got back at 12am and until now I cudnt sleep.
Been losing my appetite for e past few days.

And I hope he's happy with his achievements cuz he just killed me.